My love for weed started in my early 20s. It was just for fun & to boost creativity at first. Then I realized, “hey this also makes me feel better & forget about my problems!!”
That’s where we mess up.
Using it to avoid responsibilities and challenges. Letting it be a crutch more often, not realizing the emotions were only coming up stronger or in worse ways when I didn’t deal with my issues in the long term.
Mental health is important to face head on with a clear head.
It wasn’t until my ex and I broke up that I chose not to grab a joint right away. I didn’t feel like smoking, I wanted to cry and feel everything. I kept remembering my mentors saying that “you have to feel your emotions”.
“BUT I DONT WANNAAAA😭😭”, so I didn’t, was my usual go to. It scared me off & made me uncomfortable to think about feeling so strongly.
But it was the best choice I ever made in that moment. You have to accept the pain when it’s there because I swear to you the moment you surrender to it, the faster you feel free.. you feel lighter… you may even say grateful. After I felt better THEN I enjoyed my joint! It was hard at first for me to believe I would be ok if I didn’t resist those vulnerable feelings. Meanwhile I’m just making my life harder and piling on the pain! UGH FOOLISH but it’s ok younger me you weren’t as wise as you are now. LOL! I’m glad I faced my fear. You’re not going to die when you feel the pain silly, only going to grow from there.
I was proud of myself, it made me realize I’m becoming more conscious and in control of my life!
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