My mindset used to be wishing someone else could control my life and make all my decisions for me. So I guess I wanted to be a princess? LOL
I did not like to lead. Not in roles, not in school projects, not in jobs, anything where I had to take charge. I was a follower, I admitted to being fine with it most my life up until now. I didn’t know that things can actually go your way when you choose to make a conscious choice to find control in it. I’d never thought I would care to lead by example. I always chose to be a follower which is why my life fell out of control. Basically being the extra in everyone else’s movie. Enough of that! I have to get over the fear of being the STAR in my movie and just own it!
I just didn’t want all the responsibility, that’s what it feels like.. a lot of responsibility to lead. I need to get over that because thats just life. LoL! I just have to take my power back and choose paths I’m excited about, that I love, then it’ll feel like great responsibility. I’m literally living proof that as you grow you gain wisdom. I am sorry to all of the elders in my life who I rolled my eyes to when they tried to give me advice that actually helped them grow. I’m just glad I learned that I can control my life now and for me to get what I want, I need to lead myself because no one else is going to do it for me.
When things get stagnant or bored or down right shitty. In that moment take your control back! You can lead yourself to do something to improve that state. From just accepting those emotions to taking physical action. In the moment you may feel like you can’t but thats only IF YOU LET YOU STAND IN YOUR OWN WAY!
Lead your life !
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